Neuroplasticity
There is a belief I held for most of my twenties that I no longer hold: that my brain had a ceiling. That the capacity I had was the capacity I got. I know now that this is not how the brain works. Neuroplasticity does not pause for difficult years. And in the female brain, it runs on a hormonal architecture that science is only beginning to take seriously.
Hormonal Headaches
I remember the first time I understood that my migraines had a pattern. Four months of tracking in a notes app, and the dates kept clustering around the same point in the month. Always the days just before my period. Nobody had told me this was a thing — not a doctor, not a neurologist, not the pharmacists I had consulted about whether I was taking too much ibuprofen. I had spent years treating each migraine as an isolated event. A failure of hydration. A punishment for the glass of wine. I had a list of suspected causes as long as my arm, and not one of them said: your estrogen just dropped and your trigeminal nerve is reacting. This is that explanation.
Cravings & Their Doings
There is a particular kind of afternoon I know well. It is not quite hunger — it is more specific than that. A pull toward something sweet, something salty, something warm. For most of my life I named it by the only word anyone had given me: weakness. It took reading a significant amount of nutritional neuroscience before I understood why the signal never went away. It was not the problem. The translation was.
